fuck all a y'all
what the fuck is up with me
yes i am drunk
yes i have thought about whether or not i should post on this bullshit 10th grade livejournal account.
but i did.
and it honestly doesn't make me feel any better.
don't comment unless you have something meaningful to say,
because i'm out of ideas.

ps. i am infatuated with the fact that i started using periods in the middle of this "entry", if you will.

i am in a very confusing point in my life

Northeastern it is!

UMass Amherst, UVM, UNH, NYU and McGill are in the bag.
Waiting on Northeastern and Tufts. Wish me luck.

i miss being in love
i fucking miss a lot of things

I wanna get outta here.
I'm torn. I'm stressed. I wanna PARTY!!!!!!

I'm young, I know, but even so
I know a thing or two
And I learned from you
I really learned a lot, really learned a lot
Love is like a flame
It burns you when it's hot
Love hurts......ooh,ooh love hurts

it kills me

Come and see Destination Chaos AND The Dearborn Project, along with a slew of other sick bands at the Reading Masonic Hall this Saturday, September 17th!!! Show starts at 5pm (probably until 10) and will be $6 or $7. It was going to be at the Stoneham Elks, but it's been moved to the Reading Masonic Hall, to clear up any confusion. Other bands playing will include The Coma Boys, 20 Bucks a Hero, With No Remorse, Crosswalk Fidelity and Nepenthe amongst others. Come come come!!!

I love my friends. I fucking love you guys.

Summer sucked and this school year will probably suck too.
Fuck school I should just be a plumber or something.
Actually fuck that I should just go some place far away and never come back.
I can't win.

come on leave me some love
please

THE SHOW ON THE 20TH IS AT THE STONEHAM ELKS NOT THE MELROSE VFW
...and Royal's Roast Beef is right next door! SOOOOOOooOOooooooOOOoOOooOo good!

You all better come to the tour of the century.

DESTINATION CHAOS

Friday, August 19th at the Hope Alliance Church 7:00, probably $5
w/ Ninja Vanish, Distopia, Tormentor and more

Saturday, August 20th at the Melrose VFW 6:00 I'm guessing, maybe $6
w/ The Coma Boys and a bunch of hardcore bands who knows!?!

Come come come.

On a further note, summer sucks.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
what is wrong with everything whateverrrrrrrrrrr
life is confusing
someone talk to me
leave me a comment for the love of everything
i am a rock

In her place one hundred candles burning
as salty sweat drips from her breast
her hips move and I can feel what they're saying, swaying
They say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get...

Black lipstick stains her glass of red wine
I am your servant, may I light your cigarette?
Those lips smooth, yeah I can feel what you're saying, praying
They say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get...

I beg to serve, your wish is my law
Now close those eyes and let me love you to death
Shall I prove I mean what i'm saying, begging
I say the beast inside of me's gonna get ya, get ya, get..

Let me love you too
Let me love you to death

Hey am I good enough for you?
Hey am i good enough for you?
Am I?
Am I?
Am I good enough

for you?

Summer has been relatively good to me so far. I've been working a good amount, hopefully I'll get more hours soon. I want to make lots of money. I've been seeing Mallorie and my friends a lot, so thats good. I've practiced and jammed with a few different bands. I've partied a bit. All in all, summer has been off to a good start. However, nothing's perfect. My dad's dad passed away yesterday and my mom and I are going down to Virginia tonight. Mike and my dad are already there. There will be a memorial service on Wednesday night, and I'll be back Thursday. On a lighter note, (or heavier haha I'm funny), Ozzfest is Friday. Should be fun. Hopefully everyone is alright down in Virginia. Give me a call anytime anyone. It'd be cool, I'll miss you all. Yep.
RIP Joe Nevin Sr. June 26, 1922 - July 9, 2005 .

I wish I could turn off my brain and my heart.

Date:	2005-06-12 14:48
Subject:	This is Spinal Tap
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	Mike screaming

Yea so Friday was disaster city. I woke up feeling off, went to school and left to go home and sleep, since I was going to a show in Providence that night. I wanted to be well rested. Well waddayaknow, I was sick. So I take some advil and feel better, and Mallorie and I get in my car and begin the descent to Rhode Island. After about 20 minutes, we hit a shitload of traffic on I-93 in Boston. It doesn't stop until we move onto I-95, somewhere near Quincy or Milton. Long story short, we get there in about 2 and a half hours, rather than the one it usually takes. Whetever, The Machine (the Pink Floyd Tribute band we went to see there) was INCREDIBLE. They played Dogs AND Sheep, among many many other wonderful Pink Floyd tunes. I know that means nothing to most readers but it was simply fabulous. And the bassist WAS Fitzy in 20 years. Anyways, I got home, passed out, and Saturday morning I awoke still feeling shitty. I got tea with Mallorie, bought some Bob Dylan, and hit up some tasty graduation parties. I embarked on a night of fun with Nick, Ross and Greg, and we met up with Dave as well. We ended up on a ridiculous food scavenger hunt at Johnnys in which I found a bag of treats entitled "Cookie Parade". Laughter followed, and then I went home. I made the mistake of telling my mom that my neck was stiff, and the next thing I knew I was on my way to the hospital with my dad. They thought I had Meningitis or something associated with stiff neck, fever and soar throat, all of which I had I guess. So we get there at about midnight and aren't even seen until 1:30. Well, we're in a room at 1:30, we weren't seen until 2:30 or so. So they decided to take a shitload of blood from me and hook up an IV. Doesn't this sound familiar. Then guess what I got?? A catscan! They put Iodine in my blood and it made my body feel so hot and fucked up. I guess you can't really understand unless you have iodine injected into your blood. It made me feel like i pissed myself. It was intense, probably EXACTLY the same as heroin. I'm pretty much a junkie at this point. Anyway, when the results come back inconclusive, I get to embark on another magical journey. Yep that's right, a spinal tap. They stuck a needle into my spine and took out fluids and such. It was absolute chaos. Long story short (and by short I mean long), I ended up getting home at 7:30am. What a fun night!!!!! Now I'm chilling here sweating like there's no tomorrow. Leave some love, I need it.

Everyone in the world better come to the GFMGN/Ninja Vanish/Dr. Mindbender (and many more) show at Harpers Ferry in Allston this Sunday at 1pm. It's $12 at the door but only $10 from any band members prior to the show (in other words, FITZY NICK OR I). Come come come it'll be awesome. Directions and more details are on our myspace, www.myspace.com/goodfencesmakegoodneighbors . Sweet.